Bree: entire situation. disappointed. guilt. I'm stupid. horrible mother. Traci: about to graduate then go to grad school. happy. leaving me soon. happy. sad. serious with a non-member. guilt. sad. devastated. worried. my fault. Keri: moving to Utah. happy. sad. devastated. boyfriend. happy. worried. Mom: gone forever. sick to my stomach. surreal. lonely. miss her with my whole heart. Dad: losing him. sad. close relationship. happy. need him. Matt: unsure. sad. insecure. i have no one. School: stressful. at least i have a job. Friends: non-existant. lots of sort of friends. i miss Edith. i miss Kathy. i have no one. When Traci and Keri leave I will be all alone. They can't life my life for me nor would I want that but I don't want to lose them. I miss the days when they were younger and we were all together. I miss the old Bree so much. I am a failure as a mother and as a daughter of God. I should die.
OK so now we know why I don't keep up with this blog.
